If you have a journal, do you ever find yourself flipping back through pages in awe of how different (or the same) your entries are from days, weeks, or years ago? Some of the situations I wrote about and pleaded with God to change a year ago, He has done completely different from what I imagined. So now, my ‘solution’ at that time seems totally dumb now looking back at it. I remember being so upset and even angry when things didn’t go as I had planned, but now I am so glad they went God’s way! Isn’t that funny? I know for a fact (I’ve read it back in my journal!) that God has shown me this dozens of times- that I have come to terms with the fact that I don’t know everything, so I just need to trust God with the unknown. But yet, the minute the unknown gets too frightening I let my emotions and trust in God spin out of control.
Part of that stems from the fact that when chaos is all around me, it is hard for me to ‘see’ God. I know my God is real- I have seen Him at work and my heart has sensed His intense presence. Have you ever though, in the midst of all the chaos, wondered what the heck? Why DO I believe this? I can see why the ‘world’ sees it all as nuttiness at times?!
I am studying Ecclesiastes right now using The Dee Brestin Bible Study Series. I came across this in my study and I literally felt God opening the eyes of my heart and his presence wash over me.
“Does Solomon also look for wisdom from God? We know, according to historical passages, that he did. We also know that God gave it to him. Therefore, what happened?
T.M. Moore captures it in the following paraphrase: In 1:14 Solomon says, “I could not be content to stay within the orbit of his love.” Even if we have godly wisdom, that alone will not be enough. Because we are presently earthbound, we simply can’t understand all of the deep mysteries of God. We don’t have all the answers for why God allows the mysterious things that He does. One day we will understand, but for now, when we do not understand, we need to trust His character and wisdom. If we aren’t willing to trust him, if we aren’t content to stay within the orbit of his love. then we will spin out of control as Solomon did.”
I desperately needed to hear this! I cannot become reliant on my feelings- for my feelings are fleeting. There are things I don’t understand about God, but that is how God created us to be. I believe that causes us to have no other choice but to be dependent on Him and constantly seeking to know Him more- to have a deeper and deeper relationship with Him.
How absolutely wonderful that you designed it like this God- that we would have to stay ‘within the orbit of Your love’.