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1,000 years

Here I am again. Back to sending off a kindergartener, one of my boys who will never be home all day with me again. Perhaps you remember this post from 3 years ago…

I really, really, really didn’t think I would be emotional this time, and honestly I’m not (well, mostly:) ). However, I decided to go in and look at Elliott after he went to sleep on Kindergarten Eve like I did with Trevor. All these images of him flooded my memory like that Father of the Bride scene (which, by the way, my dad swears he still sees when he looks at my sisters and me. :) ) I remember when Elliott was three and I would say, “you’re my boy Elliott!” and he would reply, “you’re my girl Mommy!” I thought about all the times when he all out punches and attacks Michael when he pretends to “get” me. Elliott is my defender, my Knight in shining armor, my true little superhero. He’s passionate, which when he is angry means he is my little ticking time bomb. But I love that about Elliott, and I know God will shape that passion into great things for his future.

There is something bittersweet about Kindergarten. Elliott is an old five- he turns six in a couple weeks, so he and I both have been ready for Kindergarten for a while now. :) But as excited as we both are, there’s still a heart wrenching ache knowing that this is it. He never again will be home with me all day every day. I nurtured him, prepared him, taught him, and helped him grow for nearly six years, and now I send him off with a piece of me.

I am so thankful for the three souls I have been given to nurture. And in all honesty, I find that THEY nurture MY soul. They have made me less selfish. They have made me learn to embrace God’s plan for life instead of my own. They have taught me that life is designed to move along, not stand still, but to run with joy in each new step.

Whenever the song, A Thousand Years, comes on I tell the boys, “This is my song to you! I have loved you for 1,000 years!” To which Trevor replies, “Mom, you haven’t lived 1,000 years.” :)

But it’s true. The love I have for them gives me even just a glimpse of God’s great love for me. It feels like there was no beginning to it and there will be no end.

So here’s to you my Elliott, my kindergartener, my middle medium boy- may you know God’s love deeply and convey His love to others. May you be a light on a lamp stand, and the salt of the earth bringing out the God flavors of this world.

I have loved you for 1,000 years and will love you for 1,000 more. :)


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Found this one day attached to one of my cabinets.  I love having child that can read- it adds even more fun to the day!  “Mom, that says Emergency Exit…DON’T GO THAT WAY MOM!”  “New. Markdowns. Everyday.  Mom, that says New Markdowns Everyday.”  I will never miss a sign again now that I have another set of eyes watching out for me. :)  Oh, and I’ll know of a Restaurant in my living room that serves Salad, Potatoes, Pizza, and Side One is Beans and Potato Salad.

I love listening to them talk.  Here are some of my favorites lately that keep my day always exciting:

“When there’s no one to itch my back, I just itch it on a tree or something.”

“I have two friends inside my head that I talk to all the time.  I don’t know their names though.” (Then the next child in response to that) “…yeah, I talk to the tooth fairy.”

“Mom, she’s soooo pretty.  I just want to kiss her face.”

Uh Oh.


Wild Things .1

I stumbled across this book and was crazy about it immediately. I mean hello, I live in the land of boys, came from the land of girls and have no idea what I’m doing. And check out the cover- it has to be good with a cover like that. So I read some reviews and bought it and three other ‘raising boys’ books.

That was a year ago.

Now here I am a year later finally picking up the book. I’ll just be honest and lay it all out there for you…I always have good intentions with books. I go on a book kick and buy several, (usually on Amazon because the super saver shipping on $25 purchase gets me every time) start to read one, then lose momentum and shelve all the rest.

I brought this book along with me to our annual trip to the Zielke cabins in Corny, and started reading it by the fire one evening. I.LOVE.IT. Right away I started spouting out quotes to Michael’s mom who was sitting by me. :)

I want to chronicle my thoughts so I can refer back to it often, hence the .1 in the post title. I might do up to .10 or I might continue in my book pattern and this will be my only post. Only time will tell. :)

But here are some of my FAVORITE things so far…

  • “All children are a divine gift.  Boys are no exception.”  (Can I get an Amen?!)
  • “Boys bear a unique image of our wild, playful, and imaginative Creator.”  (I love that illustration)
  • “How boys are nurtured directly affects who they will grow into as men.”
  • “How boys are designed often requires a different approach from what we would take with girls, if they are to find their way and mature into noble men.”
  • “Boys are (more than) a little squirrelly- but a whole lot of fun.”

So I am on my way!  All the way to chapter two!  Haha!

More thoughts later, xo



As the boys continue to talk more and more and have conversations with each other, Michael and I find ourselves laughing hysterically several times a day.  I love hearing children talk- listening to them try to put together correct phrasing and explain what they are thinking.  They’re so innocent and not yet hardened by life.  I have so much to learn from them…

Here are some of my favorites as of late:


(Taking a rock out of his coat pocket and pausing to look at it and squeeze it)

“What’s that?”

“It’s a rock I picked up from the ground where Dr. Chuck was buried.”

He keeps it with him in his pocket.



(Praying at lunch)  “God.  Thank you for drinks, and people, and Simon.  Amen.”

(Riding in the car looking out the window) “Grandma Julie and Grandpa Bob are coming next time.  All the Texas guys are coming next time.”

(Staring at me in the rearview mirror)  “Mommy, you’re beautiful when you take me to the park.”

So sweet.

And then this happens…

Trevor:  “Mommy, do you have another baby?  You’re fat.”

Elliott:  “Yeah, you’re fat!”  (While they both poke my belly…)

And then the moments you can’t help but laugh because they make no sense at all…

Elliott:  “Daddy, when you drive it feels like there is a bug on me.”

Hahaha, love these boys.  They make my heart full. :)


What month even is it!? Time flies…

So it’s only month 3, and I’ve already fallen behind on the Simon updates I wanted to do for him. Oh, goodness!

When Simon was two months old (Feb 15th) he experienced his first move!  We boxed everything up and unpacked everything, and are starting to actually feel settled in our new home!  I still have lots of “projects” I want to tackle (Michael rolls his eyes at my daily mentions of spray paint, sandpaper, and refinishing…)  But we are getting settled nonetheless. Simon, you are such a joy!  Your brothers think you are the greatest little ball of fun ever, and I love watching you smile back at them thinking they are just the most hilarious capsules of energy ever!  We like to watch you discover your hands too.  You get so excited about them and kick your legs excitedly.  You sure are packing on the pounds too!  Just like Trevor was, you’re close to the 100th percentile for weight!  Unlike your brothers though, you’re really tall too!  The boys were always in the 60th percentile for height, but you’re in the 80th! We love to “talk” with you and you sweetly coo and gurgle at us while smiling.  You have such a sweet spirit.

You started your first BSF  class this month too!  I walked by your 0-2 year old class on the way to my lecture and all the babies were in a circle in their carseats or in the teachers’ arms (my friend Becky was holding you) and they were telling you the about 4 sentence Bible story that was an abbreviated version of the one your brothers and I were hearing (Isaiah).  Then they started singing the hymns over you!  I cried.  How awesome that seeds of God’s truth are being planted in you so early.  2 Timothy 3:15 rings true! “and how from infancy you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus”!

You turned 3 months old (March 15th) this month!  I cannot believe how fast the time is flying.  We received devastating news that Dr. Chuck died suddenly, and we flew down to Texas right away to be with Nana Nu and family.  It was precious to see your sweet smile bring joy to people though even in the midst of tragedy.  Auntie Laura (Musfeldt/Walker) carried you all around one afternoon because she said you were helping her cope with the loss of her amazing dad, even if it was just for a few hours.  You sure are a blessing.

I tried putting you in your room overnight a few days ago, but around 11 pm, I went and picked you up- sound asleep- and brought you into our room!  My heart is having a REALLY hard time with you growing up!  Last night I decided I was going to try again, and I seriously had to talk to God about it for a good ten minutes, asking Him to enable me to hold you with open hands- for I know it is GOD who sustains you and carries you, not me.  I asked Him to help me to embrace the next stage of life with you and not hold on so tightly to the past.  He is helping me because sure enough, I put you down in your crib at 9 pm with great peace, and did not go back to get you until 7 am!  He’s growing me Simon! :)  Thanks for being His instrument in that!

I captured a few of your smiles (but, Lord help me to figure out my camera settings better so they aren’t so fuzzy!)  Love you little dumpling! (Thanks for the nickname Charlene Hoadley!)

Two Months
Three Months

Loving on our sweet friend Oliver!
No joke, I found Elliott asleep on afternoon like this! He loves Lily!

Brotherly love

Seeing all three boys together makes my heart full.  They genuinely love each other.  When Simon is crying, the older two will often try to soothe him without my help.  When I watch them interact with each other I see glimpses of the future when they’re grown.  I pray that they remain close friends like I am with my sisters,  that they are godly men confident of who they are in Christ, and that they will be leaders of the next generation.  I just love being their mom and I cherish each moment I have with them. :)

Trevor's "Z" picture: Zielke brothers
Trevor's "N" picture: New brother