BSF review, Take two

(Take one: http://www.zielkehut.com/blog/2010/10/06/my-bsf-review/)

Trevor, Elliott, Simon, and I just completed our first BSF year: Isaiah.  Ah.May.Zing.  I highly recommend you try out a class in your area!  www.bsfinternational.org

God has taught me so much about Himself this past year.  Something that really stuck with me while studying Isaiah is that God will do everything necessary to dig out the “thorny” parts of me.  I remember often reading God’s words to Israel thinking “Man, these people just can’t get it right!”  But then realized God was showing me evidence of similar sin in my own life- arrogance and pride.  Each week He would bring me to my knees realizing He still has so much work to do in me!  He has really helped me to grasp that I need Him moment by moment, there is not one thing I can do on my own.

Another theme I feel like God has been working on in me is from Isaiah 14, “Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will happen.”  I have always have had my “plans” for my life and really always just thought God would get in line with those plans. (Ughhh, Israelite right here!!)  But He has shown me that His ways are not my ways,  His plan is better, and He is making all things RIGHT!  There has been lots of discomfort in this process, but I trust He is sovereign and would not want to be any place but in the center of His will for my life.  “O Lord, you are my God!  I will exalt you and praise your name, for in perfect faithfulness you have done marvelous things, things planned long ago.”  Isaiah 25:1

Lastly, I am so very thankful for the children’s program.  To think that my 5 year old, 3 year old, and my 6 week old (when he first started going to his class) are being taught truths about God and learning to praise Him, my heart swells.  I pray fervently for their salvation, to the point that I become very distressed over it.  God overwhelmed me in the notes one of the last weeks when it said, “The Word of God has enormous power to bring about what it announces, as it is communicated by the Holy Spirit.  Have you spoken His Word to your child and been met with indifference?  Will you believe God, that His Word will have effect?”  In that moment I was totally in awe of the LORD.  He knows my heart- my desires, my fears, my everything and meets me right where I am.  All of us women studying Isaiah all have different trials- but God still meets us each where we are.  God began to show me that just as He meets me right where I am- He is meeting each of my children right where they are as well.  When I think of that- my heart is at peace.  The burden that I was some mediator between God and them was lifted, and He showed me that He is their personal God too, and will bring about the truths He has planted.  I just need to encourage them and pray for them as they seek Him.

So to conclude:  I heart BSF :)

4 thoughts on “BSF review, Take two”

  1. I love you so much. You are an inspiration to all moms…and moms to be ;) I heart BSF too…and didn’t for a very, very long time.

  2. Jenni, this note is such and encouragement to me! I cannot tell you what a blessing it is to see young moms with their little ones in tow so committed to studying God’s Word, and so committed to enrolling their little ones in the children’s program! I LOVE hearing the stories that the children’s leaders share..I praise God for your transparency and your commitment to growing in the knowledge and in deep, sweet relationship with our sovereign Lord, and your fervent desire that your children grow to know Him as their own!!
    Isaiah was a very difficult study for me, challenging, convicting, yet it assured me that I can rest in the sovereignty of my gracious loving God! Like you I truly believe there is no safer place to be than in the center of HIS will..as you say we all have our own trials, but God is so personal in meeting us right where we are!! You, me, and your precious little boys!<3

  3. Sweet Jennifer Joy, daughter of the King, cherished and beloved, how you glorify Him and delight His heart. And mine. I praise him for you beautiful daughter. I love the Lord Jesus with all my heart. I love how He uses His word to change me, convict me, transform me to be more of Him and less of me. Moment by moment. Sometimes I get frustrated that He doesn’t work His transformation in me faster…but I am learning to rest in Him and His sovereign desires for me daily. I, too, thank Him for this study of Isaiah, in every moment, every word the Lord met me in some personal intimate way. He is also working out the thorny places in me…the places where I am tempted to change and mold others into places of loving others unconditionally and lavishly as He loves me…and the places where I am tempted to disrespect or react pridefully into places of respectful humble kind and gentle response. I think He used the revelation of His sovereignty in Isaiah to prepare me and lead me through deep intense grief over Chuck’s death. And as I would visit children’s classes throughout SAT-Austin, as I would rub the arm of a sweet baby or 3 year old or 5 year old, I would pray for the lovely children’s leader or volunteer who was rubbing the arms of my beautiful grandsons. Living so far from you never gets easier, but the Lord comforts me in the sweetest, most tender of ways. I love Him. And I love you. xox

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